New Chapter of Openness

I feel that I am still holding back, 
that I am still afraid of sharing everything what happened (and happens) to me 8so many incredble wonders!)
because I still see myself with other people’s eyes and not mine
and feel the weight of these persons opinion on me.
I still don’t want to ‚dissapoint‘ 
But do it with every honest sharing.
I feel so connected to people 
who only know a version of myself that no longer exists
and because of that loose the connection to me.
But this woman they knew died a hundred times -in this life (and in all the others). 
 
I can feel how they get triggered with my postings.
 
Who am )? This is a decision we make every day anew, or better: in every moment we can chose. 
Today I chose to not be any longer scared to scare people, also I would prefer making them feel good. But darkness comes first. That is the rule number one for every miracle in life. Even in the bible the darkness was the first thing there. And yesterday I wrote an article in National Geographic that we maybe live in the womb of a mother universe in a black hole. So yes. Let’s face everything what absorbs our light and find the life within. 
 
I know I carry so much revolutionary wisdom now inside of me, wisdom which has truly the potential to make the world a place where we find love and peace as this is what we have found within, in us. Everyone of us.  
 
How can I speak about the unspeakable? I cannot. 
 
But I can try to bring you there so you can see and feel it yourself. 
This is the mission of my life.
Being a cheerleader of the divine. In you. In me. In this universe. 
We can come in such ecstatic contact. This is our birthright and everything which is not love is just an illusion and a lie. It is as simple as that.
And if I can make this journey (from the head inside the full (before numb) body and because of that inside the whole cosmos), you can too. 
 
So, let the ride start. 
 
I've learned in Dearmouring and with the work on our beloved bodies, this wonderful mirrors, points need to be triggered to release the old pain and for make space for something better. So let’s get triggered, baby.